5 years down!

How has it been almost another year since I have been able to sit down and write???

HOW HAS 5 YEARS GONE BY SINCE MY HUSBAND GRADUATED THE ACADEMY???

This past year has been big in giving me insight for the future. I really want to focus myself and my family on what is important and that's God and each other. Maybe its all the negativity in the world or just all that is shared in the media and social media, but I want everything I say and do to be making people better/happy/inspired/encouraged. I also want to share God's word more and have more confidence in what I am sharing. So hopefully I will have more time to share how this CHP wife and SAHM mom of 2 really looks when you live a life truly of Faith over Fear.

It's almost been a year since my husband has moved to an office position and I LOVE IT! I am a very schedule/organized person. Now that my husbands schedule is consistent, I can plan dinner (almost) every night, outings over his weekend, DATE NIGHTS! This is also really great the little ones because they know daddy will be home for dinner (for the most part). They know daddy will play with them over the weekend. I really hope that through the negotiations (that will hopefully start again soon) they can come up with something that helps create consistency for all officers. It can honestly be a 180 for a family if they can make it work.

But lets go back to the idea of date night for today. Especially with having 2 little ones, I noticed that we were not focused on us. I mean why do new need to be? We are married. I already got him, right? 😉 I mean we are both exhausted from the day (between work and the kids). Not having the energy for each other is understandable. But its not okay and I was really feeling it and I know he was too. So for Valentines day I bought us some reading lol. It's called Fierce Marriage and they also wrote 2 "devotional" type books call Husband/Wife in Pursuit (perfect title for a LEO couple huh, even though it has nothing to do with that). This is probably one of the best things we have done for our marriage. Now you don't have to be "falling apart" to decided to do something like this. We have a pretty strong marriage. We just have been getting caught up in everything else that we were forgetting about the other which is so easy to do, especially in his line of work. Finding the balance of letting him have his time to wind down from work and being there for me and the kids is hard. So we started reading these devotional and we actually had to stop on day 10 of 31 because we were spending so much focus on each other it was a little exhausting lol. But just in those 10 days it refocused us back on each other and what the other one does ourselves, for our family and our walk with Christ. Even though I am almost always a crazy ball of hormones thanks to birth control it feels like, we have a lot more understanding and patience with each other and spending that time we need too with each other. Again, we are not perfect, nor will we ever be but we sure can strive to be a better couple pursuing one another while we pursue God more.

1 John 4:18 ¹⁸There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

So don't forget to keep dating! There is no reason that this profession should have a higher divorce rate if we are both in it for the long haul, able and willing to purse one another!

So much can happen in such a short time

I can't believe I haven't posted anything since May!

I want to start talking about what's going on in this country first. Since my last post we have lost, I believe more than 10 officers in the country due to people shooting them! Are you kidding me?!?! For the most part I don't worry about my husband. This is the life he wanted. He is very good at it and has always had pretty good interactions with people. Plus he is a strong man of God so I know his protection is all over him and when it is his time there is nothing I can do about it anyway. But I am not going to lie, the morning of the Dallas PD shooting, I was crying pretty good. My DH had just been back on the road for about 2 shifts since he was okayed by the doctors after his motorcycle accident. But as I cried, I prayed and just asked God to cover him like he always does and to bring him home to us ever shift bc he needs to meet his little boy soon. And it was pretty amazing to have people check in on me. I got calls and text to make sure I was okay and to pray over my DH. The funny thing is, at least I thought so, with all of this being a "race thing" everyone who checked on me was black. It just goes to show you that this really isn't a race thing. It's a media thing, it's an education thing, it's a culture thing. I really want people to think about this. How many of you know someone who was shot by a police officer? Now how many of you know someone who was shot by another person? Better yet, how many of you know someone who got in a fight us in another weapon or just their hands? If people actually asked themselves these questions, we would see we don't have a police brutality problem, we do not have a gun problem, we do not have a race vs race problem... We have a media problem making it look this way, we have a culture problem that this younger generation doesn't fee they need to work to get what they want just take it, we have a culture problem where it's okay to "spread your legs" and when a child comes from it not take responsibility in raising them! 

Okay I think my rant is over, now for the fun stuff! ONLY 2 MORE WEEKS TILL MY DUE DATE!!! I just can't wait to meet our little boy. It's crazy how he can already have so much personality in th womb. I don't think he is going to be a baby to be swaddled bc he is already trying to stretch out all the time! And how he knows our voices! My DH sings on the church praise team when he gets Sunday's off and last week he had a beautiful solo. Right away when he started singing, our little guy started moving all around. It was such an exciting thing to see/feel. We did decided on doing a "Chp-ish" theme for his nursery, focusing more on the blue and gold colors. Then my mother in law found a CHP designed fabric and now he actually has a pillow and quilt with it on it! We recently realized that his due date is the CHP anniversary so it really fits perfectly. Poor kid is going to be born to be a Chippy. But we are proud to be a part of this CHP family and even more so the whole Blue Line family too!