Late night again

So with 2 under 2 now I rely on my husband more when he gets home from work. I try my best to time dinner accordingly, time for him and his boy to hangout before he goes to bed and then snuggles with his girl before she goes down. And maybe even a few moments just for us before starting all over again the next day. But being off on time is hardly a thing in this LA area office, that I’m use to, but getting the phone call “there has been a fatal in the area, don’t expect me tonight” are words that just suck all around.

I can get pissed off that I now have the whole day just me and the kids, even bath and bed tonight but what good does that do. And unfortunately someone out there just lost a family member. Others could be a part of this and have to live with taking a life. My husband is now exposed  to an awful scene.  Honestly the last thing I thought about when I got the call this time was me and the kids. That’s when you know you are a true LEO family. Dinner is already in the crockpot so it will be ready for him when he gets home. He may miss the kids tonight but there’s always FaceTime. My first thought was how awful for this family, especially Easter weekend.. How awful for the officer and first responders who have to go to this scene. Just get there, get to work and get home safe. 

As a LEO family, we choose to support our LEO at all times. The things they see and deal with, many people wouldn’t be able to handle for longer than a week, if that. For them to know “don’t worry, I have it taken care of on the home front” is what makes their work lives easier. Right no he doesn’t need to focus on me and the kids. He needs to focus on this life lose and their family. 

“"Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.”

‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5:4‬ ‭ESV‬‬

I feel comfort knowing my guy is out there to help comfort others. With God as our family foundation, he can help show a compassion to this situation not everyone can. And the more I can take care of everything at home, the more he gets to be that man of God in uniform. 

So yes, the late night suck, but remember why he has those late nights and how you can help the situation. Don’t worry, he will repay you for your support and strength at home in the future. 😉

Reality Check

So first, fun, happy stuff... we are officially in the 2nd trimester! Yeah for feeling more like myself and getting back to doing what I want to do. :) And seeing out little one who actually looks like a baby now which is so exciting! It even had the hiccups when we saw it last so it was moving around, CRAZY!

Anyway... After our 3 month appointment my DH decided he missed his motorcycle and wanted to see if he could still do some of the things he has learned in training. Little did I know that about an hour later I would be getting a phone call from him that the paramedics were on their way to check him out because he took a "tumble" off his bike. When I finally believed him (he likes to prank me from time to time and his voice was way too clam) I panicked! I'm pretty sure I yelled at him "You are going to be a parent! You need to stop doing things like this!" LOL Anyway, it was much more then he said it was. When I got there they had him in the ambulance, on the stretcher, taking him to a trauma er. See we have Kaiser so I was like why can't we just go there? And they told me they wouldn't be able to be he needs more of a trauma center. Seriously??? Okay then off we go to a hospital in the ghetto. I probably arrived about 10 minutes after they did so I went to the er information booth and they guy told me I would have to sit down and wait at least 45 minutes before I got to see my husband. I lost it! I seriously lost it! Lucky for him, not on him. I went outside and just starting bawling. The called my sister and told her I needed her. Then I just sat there trying to get it together. I mean seriously? Who tells the wife of a patient sit down and wait 45 minutes!?! Anyway, the ER staff knows how much of a pain that info guy can be and his doctor actually came out to find me and bring me to him! So great! Set me up in the family room because I knew the friend that was with him was coming and now my sister. Little did I know my parents and his parents were coming as well. By the time my sister got there the info guy must have had a talking to because they had no problem letting all of them in. Anyway... long story short now after a cat scan, x-rays of his entire body he has bruised ribs, bruised kidneys, and some bad road rash. At first they were going to keep him over night because the kidneys worried them but they let us go around midnight instead. So it has been interesting taking care of my husband, making sure he isn't doing somethings but needs to be doing others. Being like a nurse and changing the road rash bandages daily. It has been interesting to say the least but for it just to be bruises and road rash I would be happy to keep doing it! Needless to say he will not be getting back on a motorcycle anytime soon, especially with our first little one on the way, even though he wants to in the future. That will be a conversation for the far future for me.